~ 3/18/2006 09:11:00 PM ~
Saturday, March 18, 2006
[power!]
Training today… I felt more enthu about it..
And for the 1st time (although with an injured knee)
I kept going out to stroke, hit the wall, and juz make myself an enthu as possible..
Usually enthuness comes about when u play properly.. or it makes u play properly..
Well.. today although nv play as properly as I would have liked it to be..
Im gonna be working on it.. and try to be as consistent now..
Like everytime play match muz PIA PIA PIA!!!!!!!
Only fear now is my poor knee…
I think it doesn’t hurt as much.. so its really the fear that’s holding me back..
Hmm.. does that mean fear is holding us back as well?
Tt’s y we cant go far??
Or is it pure laziness…
It’s hardly ever.. “yes! Trg trg trg!!!!”
And more of “argh…. Trg…”
And ppl are like dong bu dong jiu give up…
Or dong bu dong oh I cant go trg or cant do this or cant do that cuz here pain there pain..
Haiz..
Where’s the determination..
Where’s the perseverance…
Where’s the fighting spirit…
Where’s the will…
Wad do I do… even if I wan it myself..
It’s a team thing..
The others muz want it as much as I do if we are to improve..
Do I go talk to the captain??
I’ve never really talked to her..
Would she reciprocate?
Or juz brush it aside..
Well.. I guess b4 I thinking of all the possibilities..
I need to make an effort and get down doing sth about it..
Stop worrying and stop fearing lynne..
Dun fear rejections or failure…
NEVER….SAY… DIE…..